By Shekinah:
When I was a 19 year old atheist a young former drug addict told me that I could experience Jesus if I simply would talk to him. When I followed his suggestion the spirit of Jesus liberated me from the negative effects of drugs I was having at the time. Jesus has been my friend, counselor and lover ever since and has not only liberated me from drug effects many years ago - by following Jesus' example of dropping out the way it is documented in the Gospels, I have found freedom from the chains of the commercial society.
Reading the story of Jesus I saw a man who overcame his fears of survival by determining to trust God and put that trust into action. He apparently grew into this total trust: first he left off working for his own support as a carpenter and left the security of his own home, then he trusted God for the repercussions of his speaking highly controversial truth and finally he trusted God in his tremendous suffering and with his death as well. I want to grow into that kind of trust.
I am so thankful that David and I have taken the first steps of learning that complete trust by giving up having a residence and giving up our own efforts to secure a regular income or support and that we are learning to be that voice of truth.
Jesus is quoted saying that he wanted to do all the things God desired of him, even the very difficult ones, because he loved God so much. I want to grow into that kind of love. I want to learn to become one with God the way he did. I want to learn to become more and more a channel for love and justice like Jesus was.
It is recorded that Jesus once prayed that those who would follow in his way of walking with God would be one with each other and with him and he implied that they would be like his bride. I consider and perceive myself to be one of the bride of Christ.
Jesus, My Lover and Role Model